Happy 1/2 Birthday, Jaxx

I can’t believe that it has been 6 months. The last half a year has gone by faster than I could have imagined. Life with Jaxx has been so wonderful. Hard? Yes, absolutely. But wonderful.

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Jaxx, you are the sweetest little man. You are loving the life of solid food, you smack your little hands and arms in excitement to eat. This week, you have really gotten the hang of this whole sitting thing. You are still a bit wobbly, but a little practice is all it takes. I have a feeling that once you figure out that your legs are there to help you move, you will be all over trying to keep up with your brother.

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Something I love most about you is how friendly you are. If anyone gives you a moment to make eye contact, you shine the sweetest smile. Both you and your brother have such handsome smiles and have a love for people– I love that about you guys.

Waking up to the sound of your morning “chit chats” with yourself is one of my favorite things. Your daddy and I love to listen to you. Stay smiley. Stay happy. I love you, Jaxx.

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My Wildest Adventure

He is my WILD CHILD. He made me a mother. He is certainly not the easiest kid, I am sure of it. However, he is my sweet boy. The one who leans over to me and tells me “I uff you!”. The one who seems to only want to please, and is heart broken when he doesn’t. He is a tester of his limits, of the boundaries being set for him.

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As he sees my belly grow bigger, he gives it a hug and kiss and tells me that he is excited for baby brother. I have this nerve in my stomach as we approach the end of this pregnancy. The nerve flashes from excitement to a small hint of sadness. This sweet boy, right here, has been all I have known in my course of Motherhood, for the last 3 years. He has been my only child. I have poured my heart and soul into him and it is so hard for me to imagine being able to give this amount of love to any other person. I KNOW, I KNOW, every mom says this when they are adding to their family. Just as I didn’t know what this love would feel like, prior to being a mother; I know, I have no clue that I will be able to love another sweet boy to the same magnitude that I love this one, right here.

I am excited for this – yet nervous. I pray every night that I can show my children how much I love them, daily. That neither of them (or any in the future), will ever feel less than ALL I have to give to them. I love you Russell. and I love you Baby #2. We can’t wait to meet you and give you all the hugs and kisses that have been being given to my belly. I can’t promise I will be perfect, but I promise I will always try my hardest to be the best mother I can be to you.

My son and his new adventure...

A couple of weeks ago, I was asked if the photo I posted on Russell's first day of Preschool might be included in a video for Motherly about sending your kiddo off to their first day of school. As a big fan of Motherly, I said yes. I got the link this morning and I sobbed in front of my coffee this morning.

Russell is currently upstairs sleeping in, after a long day. I sit in front of my coffee at almost 8am, prepared to get a start on my day. As I watch the video link that Motherly sent me, I am flooded with so many feelings.

I feel like most weekends, when my husband and I have time to spend whole days together as a family, we continuously talk about how much we love Russell. How good of a boy he is and is becoming. When we get home late and have to transfer a sleeping boy from our car to his bed, sometimes we stand together and stare in awe and the beautiful gift from God we have been given.

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My "baby's" life beyond our home has began and it is from this point forward that I continue to sob at his accomplishments, his strengths, his gifts, and beyond. We are learning quickly as parents that it is a tricky dynamic – being okay with time, that is. I love watching him grow and feeling proud at this things he does. However – I feel sad that I can't carry him for more than a few minutes; that he corrects me if I am wrong about what is going on in his favorite little TV show; that he wants to attempt to dress and undress himself. As I said in my instagram post a few weeks ago... time has no mercy.

Happy Monday, friends. Make sure to hug your kiddos tight every day. It is another day time won't ever give us back.

Baby Suppe Gender Reveal

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My entire pregnancy so far, I have been so unsure of what we were having. There would be days I would be hopeful for a boy, and others I was hopeful for a girl. But never did I feel certain of what babe was.

Cody and I have always talked about our "ideal" kid line-up as if we ever had any choice at all! haha. We said, and still say it is Boy / Boy / Girl. So, as I lay in the ultrasound chair at 14 Weeks Pregnant, watching little babe on the screen, I wondered what he or she was– The tech knew I wanted her to write it down. As we wrapped up, I asked her, "How confident do you feel in your accuracy?" Knowing perfectly well that is was still early to see the gender. Without hesitation, she responded, "100% Confident!" In that very moment I knew it was a boy. I feel for obvious reasons, ha, however, I know you can be just as confident with a girl as well. Regardless – in that moment, maybe call it intuition, I knew we were going to be having a baby boy.

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As I left, I quickly drove over to my friend house and delivered the sealed envelope that housed the gender of our second kiddo. We would wait 3 days more before knowing our God delivered fate. 

Lone behold, when we shot the confetti canons a few days later – a Baby Boy it is! Russell really wanted a baby sister. Sorry babe – we are 2/3 complete with our ideal kiddo line up! haha.